Question 2: Are you angry or depressed over the loss?

I was never truly angry over the loss. The Doctors at Johns Hopkins did do their best efforts despite the sudden outcome.  Do I fault them in the end? No.  As some may not understand why I feel the way I do, I believe that holding grudges to someone who did their best isn't the answer.  Am I angry over the outcome in the end? Of course. No one would want to have their child go before them.

I am still sadden over my loss but as time has gone by it has become slightly easier to go about life.  I often tell myself that if I gave up when Hunter didn't then I wasn't being fair to him at all when he struggled the most and still smiled.  Some things are difficult to do, like watch videos of him.  I have been able to look at pictures without breaking down but videos draw the line.

But I take these emotions daily. Some days I do get angry and other times get depressed but it never last long as I remember his smile.